Update: February 29, 2012 10:07 PM
Well, what can I say. I knew that this effort would be difficult, but I had no idea the level of resistance I would meet from myself, from parts of me who thrive in the old paradigm. This is an intense learning process, and I am being exposed to behavior patterns inside of myself that have needed exposure and transmutation. I cannot say I have been able to stick to my guns every day as the temptations have been stronger than ever, but overall I am finding my way through the thick bushes of my own lower vibration-based mind.
My guides have told me many times over that even my making the clear intent to enact this change and trying with every bit of myself is bringing forth an energy that is to aide me greatly in this effort of mine. As of now it is quite difficult and I do kick myself for indulging, but each indulgence is itself a lesson and I am now finding increasingly the imbalance when continuing with said indulgence.
This perceived failure on my end will certainly not last. This is an everyday, every moment effort and if I can find it in myself to remain strong and indeed, achieve my eventual goal, I will be a much more purely tuned instrument for which our ascended guides and allies to give us all guidance through.
As always, I thank all of you for your support. Change is a’comin! :)
Wes Annac :)